What beats the hell out of of going on a free trip to Japan?

[rkold]

Actually, it does and it doesn't lol Giving birth was painful, particularly pushing, which is not what people generally say. Most people talk about active labor and contractions and transition but those were all not that bad. I mean contractions hurt but I sort of let myself go with it and just moaned through the pain. Pushing hurt, particularly as she went down the canal and got to the end. But out she came! I do plan to post my birth story for those who are interested. I did give birth naturally aka no drugs or pain medication. I was eventually given lidocaine for my stitches and I've taken Tums and some Colace but that is it.

I also hate being anxious over her. My sweet little Adina was born quite small and my breasts just are not producing enough milk/colastrum for her. It's terribly depressing. Even more depressing, is we've not even been able to get enough formula in her so far, so we have to work harder. She's lost way too much weight and if we don't see the # go positive by Saturday she might need to go into the hospital :(

But I love her. I love her sweet little serious face. I love the way it feels when she snuggles up to me and sleeps. I love her soft hair and can't stop petting her. She has the most adorable serious little expressions and she reminds me so much of my husband. Having her in my life (along with Kennis) are probably the best things that have ever happened to me and despite all my worries about her, I would not wish her gone for the world. Right now, nothing makes me happier than falling asleep with her.

I will be slow responding to people, I have a lot going on right now.















Things I need to do:

Order/pick out Announcements
Find a caterer for the Naming
Find a location for the Naming
Contact the Townhome Complex re: our refund
Make a problem transaction thread/bad review for Volks unless they refund me 7000 yen or send the two wigs I paid for with my July FCS order
Write more thank yous
Eat
Shower
Sleep
Be nice to Cookie ♥
FIND BRAS!!!!!!!!!

Comments

[rkold.livejournal.com]

I think my milk is starting to come in. It's a little uncomfortable for me, but if I can start producing more, we can supplement with formula and then slowly wean her from it and just use my milk. At the moment we're getting everything by pump, but we're hoping to move her back to my breast once we get further along. It's not fun, but I really want to get this to work out.

I mostly see Kennis in her, but it's OK. I use to tell Kennis she would look more like him than me and he didn't think so lol

The contractions were bad but not that bad... the pushing and feeling her coming out was not fun.

I don't want her to leave me. Right now I just love being near her all the time.

[pure-trance.livejournal.com]

That's good, I hope you get back to things where she can breastfeed full time. I am still here to talk if you want, even though I ended up stopping/

I see that she has your nose at least :). Everybody always told me that Noah looked like my husband when he was littler, but now he is looking more like me/whiter lol. He really looked a lot more asian when he was a newborn. So wait and see, I bet she will look a lot more like you when she is bigger :).

I don't know why the contractions were so bad for me...I never had bad cramps with my period or anything. Oh well, labor lasted so long for me that it was best I got an epidural, either way. But I really respect women who can do it naturally, it's really an accomplishment! I think so even more after giving birth myself.

Yeah I understand, a mother's bond with their baby is quite something! Even now I miss Noah if I'm not with him for a while, no matter how much trouble he causes.

[rkold.livejournal.com]

I might, it's just right now feeding her and trying to get things done is such a full time job. She needs to eat every 3 hours and it feels like by the time one feeding is done it's time for the next and I barely have time to do anything else.

I really don't mind if she resembles Kennis more always. Though I hope she inherits my eye sight. :D I guess we will see though what she looks like at 1 year.

I use to have awful period cramps, maybe that is why contractions didn't seem so bad. lol I honestly don't know how long labor was and then there was my labor at home vs labor in the birthing center. I got to the center around 6ish? Was checked and told I was 4-5 cm at 6:30/6:45 and she was born at 10:11.

Yeah, I'm sure at some point I will relish the breaks, but especially after having her be inside of me so recently... sometimes I miss that despite how awful it made me feel.

[pure-trance.livejournal.com]

Yeah feeding a newborn is really crazy x_x

Yeah they change a lot, of course Noah still looks similar to when he was really little but he's also changed a lot.

I dunno, maybe! My labor, including at home I think...ended up being 27 hours all told >.> so yeah...

Yeah I enjoy the breaks and look forward to them, but I miss him a the same time. It's a weird feeling.

[rkold.livejournal.com]

I've no idea how long I labored at home or when it started. I just know I woke Monday morning to contractions after a dream of having my baby lol

Anyway, sorry, I get behind very easily right now. Taking care of her is a huge time commitment and I've been trying to take care of me as well. >>;