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rkoldAnd I'm not really sure why. When it comes right down to it, I hated high school and I admit I'm immature and I *STILL* hate most of the people I went to high school with. And yet I spent the evening flipping through my yearbook and wondering, wondering where the few people I didn't dislike are now.....
Because of when I graduated, we were asked where we thought we would be in 2000, I know I wasn't where I thought I would be in 2000, but I wonder if anyone I know was...did they succeed in their goals or were their goals too high or too low or just too outrageous....
I read over the comments people wrote in my yearbook and wonder am I the same person I was then? Are those things still true about me, do I want them to be true? My friend Marla wrote some tons of amusing in-jokes and I don't get them anymore. I'm still friends with Marla, and I'm sure I could ask her about it, but I don't think it would help. I don't think she would get them anymore either.
When I graduated from high school I was trying to learn to play my Casio keyboard, I was collecting copies of Les Miserables, I talked on the phone 6 hours straight! O_O (I think that is still my record) What were our family tree predictions, the letters, and the card game?? I wish I remembered ^^;; What tennis game is Dara referring to, is it some sort of kismet that I now adore Prince of Tennis?!!? Why did Brian write "I love you!" as his ending salutation. Did he know I'd had a crush on him for years? I still can't read what Dan wrote ^^;; I wonder what happened to Ricky and Monique and Devon and Elisabeth. Everyone talks about my baking. ^^
I've also been thinking about college lately. A while ago I found some of the stories I wrote in college. I don't dare show them to anyone because they're all pretentious playlets and short stories written based on my life. The main character is nearly almost always me and the other characters are loose representations of people I was friends with at the time. This of course had me thinking about the people who use to be my friends and having just seen the Matrix, I'm starting to feel like I keep making friends that are in some ways similar to friends I've made before. It's very strange.....It's almost like I'm doomed to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again. ^^
And oddly enough I picked this quote as my yearbook quote:
Who needs a dream, who needs ambition
At the time it wasn't appropriate and yet now....
When the crazy wheel slows down, where will I be, back where I started....
Because of when I graduated, we were asked where we thought we would be in 2000, I know I wasn't where I thought I would be in 2000, but I wonder if anyone I know was...did they succeed in their goals or were their goals too high or too low or just too outrageous....
I read over the comments people wrote in my yearbook and wonder am I the same person I was then? Are those things still true about me, do I want them to be true? My friend Marla wrote some tons of amusing in-jokes and I don't get them anymore. I'm still friends with Marla, and I'm sure I could ask her about it, but I don't think it would help. I don't think she would get them anymore either.
When I graduated from high school I was trying to learn to play my Casio keyboard, I was collecting copies of Les Miserables, I talked on the phone 6 hours straight! O_O (I think that is still my record) What were our family tree predictions, the letters, and the card game?? I wish I remembered ^^;; What tennis game is Dara referring to, is it some sort of kismet that I now adore Prince of Tennis?!!? Why did Brian write "I love you!" as his ending salutation. Did he know I'd had a crush on him for years? I still can't read what Dan wrote ^^;; I wonder what happened to Ricky and Monique and Devon and Elisabeth. Everyone talks about my baking. ^^
I've also been thinking about college lately. A while ago I found some of the stories I wrote in college. I don't dare show them to anyone because they're all pretentious playlets and short stories written based on my life. The main character is nearly almost always me and the other characters are loose representations of people I was friends with at the time. This of course had me thinking about the people who use to be my friends and having just seen the Matrix, I'm starting to feel like I keep making friends that are in some ways similar to friends I've made before. It's very strange.....It's almost like I'm doomed to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again. ^^
And oddly enough I picked this quote as my yearbook quote:
Who needs a dream, who needs ambition
At the time it wasn't appropriate and yet now....
When the crazy wheel slows down, where will I be, back where I started....
